Wake up my Child whispered Mother Earth (Pt.1) – A Letter to Eddie

Now where I am on my own website nipples are no longer censored (hihi freedom for the ladies) 

AUGUST 2016

 

When I met you, you appeared in my life as a prophet when I most needed the advice. And when we hugged goodbye in Treptower Park my heart was exploding as if I was on ecstasy even though I was not physically attracted to you. And I was wondering because I didn't have this kind of intimacy ever before. It was new to me. Everything after this hug was new to me.

Dear Eddie, 

After our last encounter I was in france in the surf camps. The first day I arrived I met a girl named Chloe. I saw her and I saw she was lost as I have been before. It pulled her in my direction so I spoke to her. I looked at her and I felt like I knew everything. I said one sentence asked one question and she started crying, she didn't understand how I could know such specific information about her. She told me she felt like I was „God“ appearing in her life to give her the message she needed to hear in that moment, as you appeared for me.

Now I understand that I am „god“ as much as you are „god“ and the ocean is „god“ and the trees are god. I am the sea and the sea is me. I am the flowers and the butterflies. The sand and the stones. The animals and the insects. And whatever harms them harms me. Even the spiders that I hated so much walk on my hands and make my heart tickle today. I understand I am part of a great miracle, part of something bigger then me – I am aware of this not because I red about it in a book, but because I experience it, experience oneness, experience wholeness through my whole existence.

Now I understand that I am „god“ as much as you are „god“ and the ocean is „god“ and the trees are "god".

I also understand why I felt like I was on ecstasy when I hugged you. Because we both understand the language of the universe which is based on truth and doesn't need any words. It is energy. It is miracle. I also understand why people I feel so connected with are appearing in my life and disappearing quickly too. I want to encourage them to move on, inhale their wisdom, their stories to move on too instead of holding on to them because of my own needs. Its like with trains, sometimes they stop at the same stop but then their ways spread, otherwise „the whole“ wouldn't get any further. Isn't that beautiful? The momentum and its transience.

Since I started my meditation journey with you suddenly more and more people appeared in my life who speak my true language and I know why they didn't show up before: I was not ready to see them, because I didn't see myself. I couldn't read the signs which life offers to anyone at any given time(!!) because I was „trying to“ (please) and „looking for“(confirmation) instead of seeing what is in its true nature. 

More and more Prophets appear in my life now and I appear in peoples life as a prophet. It is a spiral and I am more sensitive to its signs. I own wisdom that I didn’t know existed within me. I realized that with one conscious touch I can find out so much about a person. And I assume I transfer heavenly energies when I focus on it without having learned how to. I feel like people change when I touch them with my magic hand. Its crazy or maybe it was crazy before... Cut off from the miracle, separated, lost. I feel like an army of love is growing on this planet earth and I am so, so glad to be part of it. I also feel that many people don't know what love is, including my younger self. Love is not a sexual act between two bodies, Love is something way more complex & way more simple, it is everywhere when you only open your eyes and your heart to receive it.

I know why I felt lost and suffered, because what I am is „god“ but the system abused my parents and their parents to teach me I was not, that god was something outside of myself, something I wasn't worthy of.

Sometimes my life is floating like a river and I feel like the whole world, everything out there, lies within me too. Inseparable. Sometimes I loose my consciousness, because my emotions eat me up, or the voices in my head become louder again. But whatever!? My aim is to let the river flow forever, there is no way back. I want to let life happen to me with no fear.

Currently I am in Madrid but I’ll be back on friday morning. I would love to have a cup of tea with you if you like. Feel like I could need some advice from somebody who is a little bit further on this intense journey called life.

Lots of love,

Victoria